FUCK! .. i fucked up sooo fucking bad "/
Out of all the things to say ? .. why did i pick that ? I'm fucking stupid he said not to say anything since things were getting better and i just had to ruin it. I knew i should have just fell asleep. I wish i never said anything. I miss him so much, and now i can never get him back. I understand why hes not talking to me, i would do the same exact thing. Ugh, stop trying already nothing i do will fix it. I'll never get things back to the way it once was. fuck, i love him so much &i miss him. I want to talk to him, and i want things to be the same but i know it wont. I miss my mom right now, shes the only one in this house that can make me feel better. I hate how im so scared to talk to him now, like whenever i wanna go to his house to try to talk to him i start shaking and getting really nervous. I dont know what to do anymore. I miss him so much &i know i cant do anything because i fucked up and its my fault. He's never going to talk to me and im going to have to live with that. I just wish he could listen to me. Im dumb, im said the most stupidest thing and im the dumbest person in the world. I let the one person i wanted in my life slip away.
