hookahh!

this week has been good bad pretty much everything

december 24,2008
christmas eve was at micheal's house and i got to spend time with my dad's side of the family. had shots to celebrate my birthday, i love my cousins! took pictures with all of them since i never see them. hung out with cathy because she's my bestfriend and is 5days younger than me! played guitar hero and i was soooo good!

december 25, 2008
christmas was fun, i got an ipod touch! and my mommy got one for my baby so now we match! [: after finding out that my mom gave me both of them i went to dereks house to surprise him with it, and he was surprised! downloaded some songs then had to go home and get ready to go to my grandpa's house. got money and perfume! took picture with my cousins and aunts. i'll put them up soon i just dont have a computer )= i was suppose to go to the other side of the family's but it ended early so we werent able to go but its cool cus we saw them the day before

december 26,2008 <3
6 months anniversary with derek abanilla! it started off really bad we were fighting a lot and it was because of me because i wanted him to be with me already but he couldnt. i went to his house got into a fight but then we made up [: went home picked up cj and micheal and we went to burbank to eat then we were like were here just to eat so we decided to go shopping. got starbucks went to find the boys in the mall went to urban then active bought really pretty socks that i am wearing right now and a keychain for derek cus the one he used to have [ the one i also bought him] kinnda looked gay for him. derek came over and we went to watch marley and me. we both cried and that was the first time i've ever seen him cry. picked up cj micheal and alex and they watched it too and they all said they cried too!


well overall its been good, tonight i wanna go do hookahh with alexis but i have to wait for derek cus i cant drive out this late "/ but if i dont go its still cool because ... TOMORROW IM GOING TO DISNEYLAND WITH DEREK! im sooo excited because im going and chels and all these other people i know are going so ima meet us with them to have lunch and maybe hang out for a little bit. im soo exicted. i have to make sure i have everything since ima leave early. my phone is charged my ipod is charging and my camera is charging. i've been watching deal or no deal and its soo cool its the speed one and its going sooo fast but its soo cool, i've never seen someone win a million so this girl better win this time and it'll be cool. i wanna be on that show so i can win a million! woooh!

rocking that shit like

2 MORE DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!

&i really really really want a ipod touch.

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"God doesn't give you the people you want. Instead, He gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you and to make you exactly the way you were meant to be."

.. thats MY boyfriend <3
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we'll work it out dont worry baby.

i feel like..

were drifting apart )=

.. i miss the OLDOLD us, i hate fighting, i hate crying, i hate that were sometimes not happy, i hate how i disappoint you, i hate how i always make you mad, i hate how i never let you do things, i hate when we say we hate each other, i hate the feeling of wanting to break up, i hate when we hang up on each other, i hate when hit each other, i hate what we've became, i hate how this is what our relationship is, i hate knowing that one day you wont be able to take my shit and end it, i hate knowing that you could do so much better, but even tho i hate all those thing im not giving up on you, i'll fight for you if i have to. i want us to work, i want us to stay together forever, i want all the plans that we made to come true, i want you for the rest of my life.

Derek Abanilla, i love you so much <3

tired

this past week all i want to do is sleep sleep sleep "/

.. Freshmen retreat tomorrow.

headache

i cant believe our relationship really almost ended last night. but we worked it out as always and i love him so much. i really really really dont know what im going to do without him when we go to college. the only thing i can do is go to a cal state near him and hopefully i'll get into it, i cant stand being without him. i know i might be clingy but idunno maybe its because i dont want to lose him ever. all i can do right now is become a better girlfriend and not worry about the future but worry about what is happening now.

before i die i wanna meet jon and kate +8! (:

knotts

i went to knotts this past weekend for my birthday. we left my house around 4 because we didnt want to be stuck in traffic but we ended up stuck "/ picked up glaylee then headed for knotts scary farm! [: got there at 7 and shit that place is scary. it was scary because everytime you would walk to the different places there were fog so you should see who would be scaring you, which was cool tho. haha. we went on i think 10 mazes and i think there were only 13 and we finished around 11 so that was good. it didnt close till 2 but we left early because we were really hungry. so we got to derek's car and when we were about to leave derek notices this car and their tires were slashed, unforunatly that also happened to dereks car "/ so we ended up not leaving the parking lot till 5 because we had to wait for my mom to come. but other than that, that day went pretty good.

oh, and my 4 month anniversary with my baby was on sunday [: &even tho we were fighting a lot that day, i still love him and im going to be with him for the rest of my life .. i know it.


.. IT'S ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY!

Yesterday

Started off bad but ended good.

I had two fucking hours of detention! .. for being late to Ms. K's TWICE "/ I was suppose to go at 830 but i was too lazy to get up so i went at 930 [: then i had to go to the doctors to get a follow up but it was chill cus it didnt take long. thank god ! watch jon and kate for a while &the food channel then i took a nap [: got ready for angela's dinner. picked up marie &went to derek's really fast so i could give his lola a gift. Went to UWink, funnnn stufff. especially playing my world! After uWink i took marie home and then went back to derek's.

25 DAYS !

.. till my birthday ! [:
im excited. whoever is reading this on october 25 please please please come with me and other people to knotts scary farm for my birthday! .. i dont know what else to do and thats the only thing i could think of. haha.

i feel like making a birthday list so people dont have to ask me what i want.
- a BIG bag of swedish fish!
- lots and lots and lots of balloons
- i want a lot of hugs tooo [:
- .. pretty much the only thing i really want is for everyone to accompany me to knotts that would be the best !

so today i talked to my goddbrother since FOREVER! .. i miss talking to him, we were like BFF's before. idunno what happened )=

Hello Blog,

Homecoming.

Yesterday was my senior homecoming. First i had to go to SAT's "/ fuckking gayyy ! i think i did really bad well, the math was easy but i wasnt really paying attention to the reading parts. but im taking it again so i'll do better. After derek and i took kelsey home and i watched her break into her house. it was pretty funny. We were hungry after so we went to mami king, we were suppose to take it to go but we ended up eating it there. Then we had to go to topanga so derek could get him purple shirt. But we went to windors first so i could show him my dress, and we went to target to buy Swedish Fish ! [: So he got his shirt and we go to my house around 5 and the dance started at 7, and i still needed to get my nails did, take a shower and get ready. I ended up finishing at 7 but we also had to get Cj's date. We got there in time and we met up with alexis and lesley.

Now, lemme tell you how my senior year homecoming went .. LAME ! "/ i was fighting with derek the whole time. And i swear i think i cried like 4 times, who cries at there homecoming ?! We were fighting because i was ignoring him or something but who cares were over it. It was like 30 minutes till the end of the dance and thats when we actually started dancing. I would of earlier but he was mad and i thought it was weird if i just wanted to dance with him while he was mad at me. So we didnt. But towards the end it started getting good. After homecoming we went to denny's to eat. Derek and I shared and cj and glaylee shared.

I wanted to go to Valencia's homecoming with Derek so we could do our homecoming again right even tho its not our school, but he cant go so its okay.

IM BACK ! [:

Kairos was so funn ! well, actually a lot happened there.
The whole experience was great kind of boring at first but turned out really good at the end. I wanna talk more about it but i dont want to ruin it for other people who are going. All i have to say is go, its so much fun. Except the food, i dunno everyone got sick after eating it. Im pretty sure all the girl took a poopie at least once since we were there. Haha [:
The only bad thing that happened while I was there was that Derek and I were fighting SO MUCH "/ like he would ignore me the whole day and that really killed my mood and i really wanted to go home. Sometimes i wish we wouldnt fight but that part of being in a relationship. Last night we talked to like 3 hours about what happened and we worked everything out [: Like seriously, that boy has my heart and I love him so much, i know im too young to say that and people might thing that i dont know what love means but i dont know theres something about him. He's the one that i think of every morning when i get up and the last thing i think about before i go to sleep. He makes me feel soooo special. We've been through soo much already and we've only been dating/going out for 6 months. So you can say that, thats not love but to me it is and i dont care what anyone says, i love him &he's my forever <3

Hello [:

So much has happened this week.
I dont know if i should be happy or sad.

Saturday was pretty much the worst day of my life, i had to go through it by myself which was worse. I mean my mom was with me but she couldnt go in with me "/ But the best part of the day is when Derek brought me flowers [:
Sunday i went to the mall with my mom, my aunt, and the boyfriend. I dont know why but my mom was buying me a lot of stuff. Like i got two pairs of boots, some gray ones and black uggs !
We dont have school today which is cool, but im kinnda bored. I went to shogun with my brother and micheal today and we didnt finish all our food so ima give it to Derek cus he's fat and will eat anything, but i still love him <3

Tomorrow im going on Kairos till friday :D