I miss us

The old us, the us before the fights before the yelling. Sometimes i feel like we cant go a day without fighting that's how bad it is. It broke me heart today when we were fighting about you know what and you told me "we have a future" but i knew i wasn't part of yours. I wanted to cry when you were trying to tell me that if i did what i wanted you wouldn't have any part in it, and leave it to me, without any help, without you. I feel stupid every time i try to fix my life to fit yours. I want to go to a college near you so i could be near you when i know you don't care if were still together or not. I hate how i cant live without you, i feel so dependent on you and you don't even feel the same. I hate when i ask you "do you love me?" and when you say yea its like your angry at me. Sometimes i think you don't even want to be with me, and that really scares me. I know we'll never be what we used to be and i know i have to let you go sooner or later, but i don't want that to ever happen. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but i know that's not what you want. I feel stupid when my friends tell me that you don't even care about me, that you think you got me all wrapped in your fingers and you could do what ever you want because you know that i'll always be with you. Im the stupid one.