If you love something let it go
&if it comes back then that's how you know it was meant to be

I'm not as strong as i thought i was. I'm so weak when it comes to him. I put up a front but I'm hurting so much inside. I'm depressed, I'm losing hair, I'm not eating, I'm growing gray hair "/ Finding out all the stuff that's going on is killing me. I really didn't think he would ever do that. He's not that kind of person and i feel like i turned him into that. Your so much better than what your doing. I know him the best and he's not like that. All i want is to leave, to get out of here. Everything here reminds me of him. & I really cant do it anymore. I fucked up so bad and there's nothing i can do to change his mind. I never thought being without him would be so hard. I cant even talk to other guys because it makes me miss him even more. All i do is talk about him on and on and on. He's in all my memories, we been through so much and i threw us away. He's my first love and he'll always be in my heart. And even though he doesn't want it, he'll always have my heart. I'm never going to forget him and that's the hardest part.